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[Alarm and Music]
Depression creeps up on you quietly.
[Notification Sound]

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At the very beginning, you struggle with

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the little things but you usually just

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ignore them. It’s like a headache, you’ll

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tell yourself it’s temporary and it’ll pass.
[Notification Sound]

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It’s just another bad day, but it’s not.
[Notification Sound]

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You’re stuck in this state of mind, you

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get used to putting on a social mask, and
[Notification Sounds]

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you continue to live among other people

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because that’s what you have to do.

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That’s what others do.

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However, the problem does not go away. You

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struggle to put on a play every day
[Notification Sounds]

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and it starts to cost you more and more.

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That is why you fall even deeper and that’s when
[Notification Sounds]

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you slowly start to back away from friends

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and family sometimes completely shutting

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them out. All satisfaction is gone.
[Notification Sound]

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The little things that used to bring you

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joy are now worthless. Even the simplest

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tasks become painful and that is why you

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lack motivation now. Why would you keep
[Notification Sounds Intensify]

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on trying if nothing makes you happy

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anyway? All of this makes you feel even

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worse and you’ll get caught up in a

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vicious circle. Suddenly you find
[Notification Sounds]

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yourself living in slow-motion. Days

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become indistinguishable. Just white noise,

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just heaviness filling your mind and

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spilling over your body. You feel as

[Notification Sounds]
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though you will never be happy again. You
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continue to back away and destroy
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relationships. You’re assumed for
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everything you’ve done and everything
[Notification Sounds]

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you haven’t. There is a part of you that

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wants to make things right. A sudden
[Notification Sound]

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positive upsurge makes you want to go
[Notification Sounds]

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out and meet people, but it’s all very
[Notification Sounds]

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short-lived because you know it won’t
[Notification Sounds]

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work anyway. Things that make your

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friends excited leave you indifferent and

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you become aware of the huge gap that
[Notification Sounds]

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lies between you. Another failure is not

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an option so in the end you choose to be
[Notification Sounds]

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alone in your comfort zone where no one

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asks any questions. Low self-esteem and
[Notification Sounds]

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the lack of purpose become unbearable.

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You finally realize you can’t go on that

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way and two things can happen:

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you either decide to get some help or

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you might attempt a suicide.
[Music Grows]
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[Abrupt Silence]

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